A former minister who was found dead after being sacked was not apologising over allegations about his behaviour towards women in his farewell note, his wife has told an inquest.
Carl Sargeant, 49, was found hanged at home in Connah’s Quay, Flintshire, by his wife Bernadette on 7 November 2017.
She told the inquest in Ruthin he was apologising for taking his own life.
Mr Sargeant was sacked as communities and children minister over claims of inappropriate behaviour towards women.
Mrs Sargeant told coroner John Gittins the farewell note in which her husband apologised for his actions was referring to his death.
When asked whether there was “another interpretation” and perhaps he was apologising for wrongdoing, she said it was not the case.
She said: “I said ‘look Carl, have you done this?’ And he said no. I still believe he hasn’t done anything.”
The court heard Mrs Sargeant woke up at about 10:30 on 7 November and found a note on the door to the utility room, where Mr Sargeant’s body was found, saying not to go in but to call the police.
Her daughter Lucy tried to perform CPR on her father, but he could not be saved.
“I can’t really describe how I felt… I don’t think anybody expects to find somebody… I can’t put into words.” Mrs Sargeant said.
She told the hearing she had not seen anything like this coming, but: “I just know the impact of the last few days.”
Her interpretation of his note was “Carl was a dad first and a husband. We were his main focus, his family. He never wanted the press to be involved with us as a family.”
Earlier, Mrs Sargeant told the coroner her husband was called to Cardiff for the reshuffle on 3 November.
Afterwards, he rang her, saying he had been removed from government and suspended from the Labour Party.
Mr Sargeant said: “I’ve been binned” and his wife replied: “That’s all right love.”
He also mentioned there had been allegations, but strongly denied any wrong-doing, “both to the first minister and to me, and the children”.
Mrs Sargeant said her husband had been “quiet” during the phone call. “Carl’s not a quiet person. You could feel, this has come as a total shock to him.”
“He had no information. He was desperate for information.”
At the time of the allegations the #MeToo campaign about sexual harassment of women was prevalent, and Mr Sargeant felt “out of his depth”, she said.
Mr Sargeant sought legal advice and his wife described him as being “shell-shocked” and there was “no clear definition” of what he was alleged to have done.
She said he had no support, adding: “I think he would have liked to have been offered it.”
Mrs Sargeant said she and their children Jack and Lucy decided “it was the right thing to do” to travel down to his flat in Cardiff, and described Mr Sargeant as appearing “vastly different” from that morning.
He tried on “numerous occasions” to contact the Labour Party without success and she said not knowing what the allegations were “devastated him”.
When the couple returned to Connah’s Quay on 6 November, Mr Sargeant received a text saying the first minister’s wording had changed from “allegations” to “incidents”.
She said her husband went a “strange colour” and shook his head.
A BBC journalist called at the house that evening, which Mrs Sargeant said upset her husband.
He told her: “That’s my job but this is our home.”
The inquest also heard that in 2013, Mrs Sargeant received a letter making allegations about her husband’s behaviour around women.
“I showed it to Carl… we talked about it. I didn’t believe it… that was it really,” she said.
The coroner asked whether former First Minister Carwyn Jones was aware of some of Mr Sargeant’s “vulnerabilities” as he had mental health problems, to which she replied yes.
Mr Gittins said he had the impression a “life event”, which was not specified, acted as a catalyst to make matters worse.
“There was also a lot of pressure from Carl’s job. He was a minister at this point. It took a lot for Carl to actually go to the doctors,” his wife said.
Eventually he started taking anti-depressants and there was an improvement, she said, but his health started to decline between 2012 and 2014, with the main deterioration in the week before he died.
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